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Happy Monday <3

2022-04-05 05:43:01 +0000 UTC View Post

Good news! The recording is perfect without freezing up!

2022-04-04 04:03:13 +0000 UTC View Post

Stream started at 04/04/2022 01:25 am

2022-04-04 01:30:42 +0000 UTC View Post

Stuck in traffic but almost home

Stuck in traffic but almost home

2022-04-04 00:44:35 +0000 UTC View Post

Hi guys!! I was a bit away the last couple of days but I pre..

Hi guys!! I was a bit away the last couple of days but I prepared videos for you that will be posted once a day starting on Monday!! (: I will belogging on tonight around 8pm so we can watch City of God together!!!! 🥰🥰 Have a blessed Sunday

2022-04-03 17:28:22 +0000 UTC View Post

Camgirl Memoir 07 - Mr. Never Enough *Posting a lil l..

***Camgirl Memoir 07 - Mr. Never Enough*** *Posting a lil later because I fell asleep upon getting home last night* **March 2016 to late 2016** I've always had a certain level of interest in psychology, and after a few years camming I can see now how both things can be seemingly connected. Camming dug me into a deeper view of peoples' minds. I guess "minds" wouldn't be the best word for it... it's more like "it has provided me rare experiences with people at very vulnerable moments of self expression". 🤔 There can be a lot of similarities between psychology and sex work, such as taking a sideline so that another person can process thoughts, worries, desires and, to a deeper level than therapists, act on fantasies. This was around the second time I took a break from camming. At the time I had already found "my people" and the requests for a Private Show had increased a lot. However, I wasn't naive enough to simply accept anyone's request, not anymore. Let's call him Mr. Never Enough. He was still in his late teens and it was his first time around a camsite. He was surprised I responded to his request to blow a kiss to prove I was live. We hit it off and he started visiting more often and one of these days was his birthday, so he decided to treat himself to his first Private show ever. I let him know clearly that I didn't do cumshows nor used toys. And his reply was: ***"All I want to see is you nude"*** (as I rarely did it in public chat at the time). He was mesmerized and even able to go for round 2. After the first private he came back for more. Always sneaking an extra request here and there. Throughout the months it went something like this: Slow strip > Do more poses > Twerk > Get Closer> Faster> Twerk faster > Clap booty > Change camera views several times during shows, etc... It was during the last private we had before my break from camming that he insisted for me to spread everything for the webcam as wide as I could - I drew my comfort zone there and said no. With each request I noticed he struggled to be satisfied. But to my surprise, when I returned months later, in August, there he was. It's always unnerving to go back on cam after a few months, so it was nice to have a familiar face around. He invited me to a Private and I accepted. The first show was fine. The second time around I was feeling so hot and sexy but he struggled to feel entertained. I had already stripped, danced, changed the camera placement, changed outfits, touched myself. The list of requests was endless and I was exhausted. He bought more time and confessed he loved to watch me, he loved my body and I was his first cangirl ever, but he thought he needed more. A sexy story as I touched my body would do it. I had never done that before. ***Mr Never Enough: Can you add anal to the story?*** *BellaBrookz: Of course* ***Mr Never Enough: I'd love to use a toy on you (in the story) so we could be doing double penetration.*** *BellaBrookz: Sure thing* I told the raunchiest story I could think of as I teased. He was happy. A few days later he was back: ***Mr Never Enough: Today I'd love to have you telling me a nice story while also dancing naked for me.*** *BellaBrookz: Yes we can do that ;)* ***Mr Never Enough: I really wish you were willing to show me everything wide... I'd pay you anything.*** My comfort zone wasn't there yet. ***Mr Never Enough: During sex I want to use a toy even bigger than my dick..*** Luckily I was feeling inspired that night and the story was coming easy for me. BellaBrookz: *"the toy feels so good like that, but when I look back at you I am begging for more with my eyes and you already know what I want. So you take the big toy from the nightstand and..."* ***Mr Never Enough: Can the toy be used on me?"*** *"... I take it from your hands with the other toy still inside of me and ask if you want to feel what I feel..."* The story goes on...I see it now. I decided to go up a notch to test the waters: *"...without asking anything I push my entire hand inside you along with the toy.."* The story gets to alarming levels of raunchiness. My point of personal preference to feel turned on had long been passed by then. But this is why it's known as work and not all fun and games... ***Mr Never Enough: Ohh yesss.. yesss*** He finished just like that. I got the drill. He is part of what we could categorize as: "the insatiables". When you are a camgirl you often have to participate in fantasies that aren't your own, but you get used to it quickly. It's even more important to find your comfort zone because things can escalate exponentially and if you aren't prepared to say no, your list of regrets will grow quickER. Mr Never Enough came back for a couple of other privates but there was a point that I couldn't fulfill his desires anymore as I wasn't willing to step further into demonstration to my stories. It was good while it lasted. *** Time went by and a few months later I met a camgirl friend from Canada. Our favorite pastime was to look for the craziest camshows going on in the internet at very late hours while using an undercover account. A bad habit I had acquired late 2011 with another camgirl friend (also from Canada, curiously). Eventually we found this room with a Colombian girl that was popping with hundreds of members. In one hour we witnessed her reaching her goals one after the other, a new boundary broken every time she reached it. It went kind of like this: "Red huge dildo" > "Black humongous dildo" > "entire hand in pussy" > "One apple in the pussy" > "2 oranges in pussy" > "2 oranges and a banana in pussy" > "2 oranges in pussy and red huge dildo in the ass" > "A bottle of wine in pussy" .. we watched in awe and shock until the gran finale "a keyboard in the pussy". Once the biggest goal was reached she was crying out of happiness. Removed a soft keyboard from a brand new package, rolled it and managed to get it all inside her. Impressive. What wasn't as shocking was realizing her biggest tipper was Mr Never Enough. A perfect match like Bonnie and Clyde, but the only thing they rob is your innocence. Ba dum tss. I think it's worrisome to be insatiable this way, since it decreases or even cancels your capacity of feeling satisfied in real life. If not yet, in time. In 9 years of camming I've had a few experiences with guys like this, that started early needing very little triggers to feel stimulated and later not being able to find anything good enough to please them. You could be hanging upside down from the ceiling fan while giving birth to a pinneaple with a Steve Harvey's moustache and it would still not be entertaining enough. A couple of these guys even gave up on visiting the site for sexy privates and shows and switching completely to conversation mode only. Better than a therapy session, they said. If you feel affected like this by porn and would like help fixing it send me a message on private chat here on Onlyfans. 💋 *I won't hang upside down from the ceiling fan but here is a pic of me pretending to play golf in what looks like pajamas.*💅🏻

2022-03-30 11:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post

I made this cringy video trying to make you smile 🙃 Today w..

I made this cringy video trying to make you smile 🙃 Today was a super busy day. I drove this family to the airport and when I was almost back on the freeway the mother calls me desperate because she forgot the wallet in my car. I drove back to mee.t her and it was nowhere to be found. Luckily they went to the airport way earlier than needed so I came back with her all the way down to the home they were staying. We looked and looked everywhere, she even looked at me suspiciously at some point (bruh! Lol). When we were about to give up, her husband calls to say it was in their toddler's cart and he was playing with it 🤡 I'm happy to feel sleepy at an early time since I messed my sleep schedule up this past weekend. I gotta interview 2 girls tomorrow! I hope they are great ❤ Good night everyone. I'm ready to pass out

2022-03-29 04:38:55 +0000 UTC View Post

Stream started at 03/28/2022 12:46 am

2022-03-28 01:06:47 +0000 UTC View Post

Hi everyone!! We have 17 min. Left on the poll!! Se7en is wi..

Hi everyone!! We have 17 min. Left on the poll!! Se7en is winning by 10 points (: I will be logging on at 8:30pm!!

2022-03-27 23:07:54 +0000 UTC View Post

Hi guys I'm back. I needed a couple of days to rest.. How is..

Hi guys I'm back. I needed a couple of days to rest..
How is your Saturday going? (:
I will open a poll for us to pick a movie so we can watch it together tomorrow night!

The brazilian movies list I currently have:
Elite Squad, City of God, Carandiru and Central Station (always makes me cry)

2022-03-26 23:22:57 +0000 UTC View Post

good evening 🖤 I definitely feel most creative at night! Are..

good evening 🖤 I definitely feel most creative at night! Are you like this too? Apparently it has something to do with your frontal cortex slowing down and your brain becoming able to visit new paths and work through all the information you have learned throughout the day and getting ready to "make sense" of everything when you finally shut down at night. I thought this was pretty cool. Anyways. Idk why im saying any of this Im just babbling and beating around the bush. I'm having a lot of random existential thoughts right now. I just had a very long day today and it was nice. I like to stay busy and I look forward to weekends so I can hangout here more. The end of the day took a shocking turn of events. I was out with friends in downtown and as they say, at the wrong place wrong time, we witnessed a horrible accident with a guy falling from about 200 feet(idk people were saying that, i only realized towards the end) from a freefall ride. His protection belt (or whatever they call it) opened half way down the ride. His family was all there. This was the saddest thing I've ever seen in my life and I'm still processing everything that happened. In a moment like this there's an eerie silence that hurts deeply and you can almost feel the air heavy. Many people were hugging and helping each other calm down, and it was nice to see people showing empathy and working together to do what could be done in that moment for the best of the family. The police acted quickly but we still don't know what happened, I pray for him and his family's broken heart to find comfort in this traumatic event.. I can't even imagine. I promise I don't like to post sad and bad things here but I guess since the premise was to make this my journal (and I'm still building up to share more with you) it's only fair that I share the good and the bad.. full package. I must admit it does feel good to vent here and not just go crazy on my own overthinking. A very good friend of mine helped me calm down and at some point he told me this is a reminder to cherish every moment with our loved ones and keep trying our best to share love and a good testimony to all around us. This is what this life is worth for. Maybe someone needs to hear this tonight.. don't be hung up on small things, it's good to forgive others and yourself. I love you guys ❤ ***“You do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away” (James 4:14).*** *"Living knowing that your life is a vapor is different than just living. Things here are passing away. You’ve got to hold on to what will stand. Savor what matters."* John Piper Rest in Peace yo.ung Tyre Sampson

2022-03-25 05:39:42 +0000 UTC View Post

CAMGIRL MEMOIR 06 - MR. BULLY Some time in 2011 A..

***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 06 - MR. BULLY*** **Some time in 2011** As I have mentioned a few times before, camming hasn't always been a successful path for me. I can firmly say it took small steps towards the top throughout the years. And in my case specifically I'm sure the slow climb was connected to not only inexperience but also a high dose of self doubt as I entered the field already hurt. One of the first things you learn to grow in this kind of work is **thick skin**, and you quickly realize that the only way skin thickens is through trauma and roughness. Gym goers, construction workers and even guitar players can testify to this :p A very remarkable experience happened on a Saturday afternoon. Back when I still struggled to keep more than very few people in chatroom and was still unsure of how to make it work for me. I'd be lying if I said my insecurities weren't always on the surface of my thoughts. From my failed marriage to a porn addict I heard laughter and a commentary of dismissal and cynicism: "I doubt you can make much money doing this like the other girls". It was now a matter of honor to make it work. After coming home from a long shift at the sports store I worked at, I decided to log on a little earlier. I knew the few friends would probably not be there as they were MFC night owls, but I figured it would be nice to expand and maybe me.et new people. I got ready, set up my new lighting kit and pointed the camera to the bed. The camscore ghost constantly surrounding me and reminding me that time without tips = lower score. And I was already lost on the 3rd page of the website with a 600 camscore (the initial being 1000 and that would set you on the bottom of the 1st page). I made sure to sit on what I believed was my best side and waited... About 8 viewers were there but what bothered me the most was the silence and lack of feedback. So I did what ALL new camgirls do: Pretend to be talking to someone in Private Chat. A few minutes go by and a song I really liked started to play, so I thought.. Dancing might bring the mood up. Not a great dancer but I enjoyed moving to music and it was nice to have some fun. It worked. And now my chat had around 15 lurkers. Midway my "performance" I notice someone typed a big comment in chat: ***Mr Bully: "WTF. THIS SITE REALLY IS GOING DOWNHILL. YOU LOOK LIKE SHIT! YOUR HAIR SUCKS, YOUR TEETH ARE FUCKED UP*** (yeah I was mid braces treatment at the time and it was kinda bad)***, YOUR LEGS ARE SKINNY, YOUR TITS SUCK, YOUR NIPPLES ARE HUGE, YOU JUST HAVE AN UGLY MUG AND YOU ARE LUCKY TO HAVE AN OK ASS BUT TOO BAD THATS ALL YOU GOT. NO WONDER YOUR CHAT IS EMPTY. FUCK THESE UNWORTHY UGLY WHORES"*** The shock. I never expected to be considered a super gorgeous girl nor anything like that, and I don't even believe it's possible to please everyone or even most people. I was highly aware of my shortcomings and also knew my positives. To be honest the part that I liked the most about the job was talking to people and bringing someone a smile after a tough day or bad relationship. I was aware of the "sexual healing" part of the job but I knew it wasn't yet my strongest suit. So I worked with what I had. What I wasn't used to was people simply being complete assholes for no reason. Duh! Welcome to the internet! In my innocence I figured if people didn't like you they could just move on. And they should. Nonetheless that one comment got me by surprise, it destroyed me that day. Specially after my ex husband's comment, a long day with lame customers at work, the stress of a very low camscore and a chat that remained silent for nearly 40 minutes despite all my attempts to engage. I remember freezing up for a moment and trying very hard to hide the pain and embarrassment in my voice: *"Oh wow.. What's wrong with you? Are you just trying to make people feel bad?"* and banned him. Then I sat down doing my best to look "sexy" and strategically moved the camera off my face. The tears filling up my eyes. About to log off and go cry in the shower. When the MFC bells went off it almost startled me. It was one of my friends, STTexan (hello! hah he probably isn't on my onlyfans.. anyways..). He sent a very darling greeting and requested a dance. He was happy to see me live at earlier times. I apologized and told him I was unable to dance at the moment because I really had to go, but that I would dance for him when I came back on again. I logged off. That day I went to bed crying, and I did not log back on for a couple of days. But when I finally did I made sure to go live during my usual late hours (Pacific time) and me.et with my small group of sweet supporters. The night was going slow but I felt comfortable. I even had a new tipper come in and chat a bit. After a couple of hours I decided it was time to leave as to not hurt my camscore further. And to my surprise the MFC bells rang loudly: ***Mr Bully wants to start a private chat with you. Accept | Decline*** DENIED.. Why does MFC even allow banned members to send Private requests? yikes It rang again: ***Mr Bully wants to start a True Private session with you. Accept | Decline*** (*True privates automatically discounted 80tokens or $8 dolars a minute from the viewer so only him could watch you*) Hm.. what's his problem? Is he a sadist? Denied again. And the bells go: ***Mr. Bully wants to start a True Private chat with you. Accept | Decline*** You know what.. I will accept it and do nothing.. I put a long shirt on and accepted it. **True Private session has started with Mr. Bully** And there I sat. No cleavage, not showing a bit of my body.. just silence. He also didn't say a word. Tik Tok... The minutes went by and I started to watch the token count grow. It had already passed the early 3 digits ***Hey*** I ignored. A feeling of sweet vengeance in my heart. The token count growing. ***Hello?*** Ignored. My mind thinking of my camscore raising and bringing me to at least up to 4 numbers. ***My camera is on do you want to see me?*** I pretend to be reading something else to drag the time even more and then reply: *BellaBrookz: No thanks.* First he cusses me off then now he wants to show me his dick? Hm no. ***I want to apologize for everthing I said the other day. I should never had said those things. It wasn't fair and I regret it.*** It's so hard for me to not accept an honest request of forgiveness. Silly soft heart. Sure, I do see it as a positive trait to have, but I'm aware wolves can use it to take advantage of you. You have got to learn to set boundaries regardless. I turn his camera on. Mr Bully lived in what looked like a very simple and poor house. He wasn't any "Chad" himself. He looked about my age and very frail, used a cap to which he removed revealing crazy rough hair and a deep receding hair line. He waved and smiled at me with not exactly straight pearly whites. My heart melted with understanding and a deeper feeling of forgiveness. BellaBrookz: *I guess you were having a bad day?* ***Yes I was, and I am very sorry. I could tell I hurt you and I think I just wanted to say hurtful things. I kept thinking about what you said afterwards. And that's why I decided to take you private to apologize and give you some tokens. Do you forgive me?*** BellaBrookz: Yes I forgive you.. Thank you for this. It's true. You really hurt me. But I understood some people just like to do these things. ***Mr. Bully: Well I don't want to be that kind of person*** We chatted a bit more, I don't remember very well. Mr Bully tipped me the rest of his tokens, which helped my camscore move up to the 700's that night. I did see him live other times but never saw him again in my chatroom nor did we talk again (to my knowledge) but I also never forgot him and his honorable apology. I still remember him fondly. Except for Dark tetrad's members (Machiavelli, narcissists, psychopaths and sadists.) bullies' are always projecting their own pain. It's funny how, before we get to know ourselves and become comfortable in our own skin, the bad comments get to us so much heavier than the good ones. I believe most of us struggle with this issue. I've even read about a Harvard study that claims it takes about 5 positive comments to overcome the damage of a bad one. Google it, it's there somewhere. But I guess what I'm trying to point out is how much worse it is when we are suffering from low self esteem. It's because we are also bullying ourselves (consciously or not). So, basically he vocalized things that I was already telling myself internally at the time and this is why it hurt so much. I believed it and put my value in it. And this is why bullies know how to pick the kids with low self esteem. They can sniff their body language like lions can perceive the fragile preys in the group. They instinctively know it will work because they know these people will believe whatever painful thing they say. (again, consciously or not) In the end it doesn't even matter if the comments are true (needed braces so what? meh boobies? Got them done - yes for myself because **I like** the looks of it - rough hair? so what lol I learned to rock it natural every now and then and even laugh at it, skinny? Work out bb!! There are worse problems in life). Whatever. The only way to blind yourself from these type of attacks is to set where your real value is. Knowing what you do have to offer, knowing who you are, where you want to go and work on what you are able to improve FOR YOURSELF while conscious that every single one of us is a work in progress. That's the powerful confidence everyone needs. ❤️

2022-03-23 08:30:57 +0000 UTC View Post

Stream started at 03/20/2022 10:49 pm

2022-03-21 04:52:18 +0000 UTC View Post

Who wants to watch Pulp Fiction with me? (: I will be live i..

Who wants to watch Pulp Fiction with me? (: I will be live in 1 hour

2022-03-20 21:26:02 +0000 UTC View Post

TGIF! I will be coming live this weekend again! If the weath..

TGIF! I will be coming live this weekend again! If the weather allows we can even have a hangout by the pool

2022-03-18 20:29:38 +0000 UTC View Post

CAMGIRL MEMOIR 05 - MR. AMBIDEXTROUS 2012-2019 ..

***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 05 - MR. AMBIDEXTROUS*** **2012-2019** We all have an innate brain structure that categorizes everything in the world we live in. It didn't take long for me to recognize and classify the different type of members in my chatroom. The lurkers are well known and widely talked about. Then we have the friends, which are the people that make it worth it to go live streaming and often become real long date friends (❤️), the skypers, the beggars, the mono requesters, the fetishists, the video crazies, the shifters (love and hate.. it's complicated), the summer lovers (start very intense then disappear quickly), and so on. The category of the member we will talk about today is the mono requester. Years go by and the mono requester still knows exactly what he likes. He will always request the exact same simple thing, and I can relate to them as I'm the type of person that always orders the same hot chocolate, the same favorite dish in every restaurant I go... Boring I know. My first mono requester was around 2012. He would come into my room a couple times a month, sometimes disappear from MFC for a couple other months, but always return. He would tip 200 tokens and go: ***"Hi gorgeous, left or right tonight?"*** To which I would sometimes joke about and flip a coin for him, or simply pick one side and give a random reason, just to make things interesting. It was always exciting to see his name pop up. I could always, without fail, count until 5 and expect the tip to come with the same singular request. Then he would vanish and remain silent for the rest of the night. Over the years he was a constant appearance. Sometimes he would pop during a cooking show, others during a nude dance, he would rarely show up in group, but sometimes there he was, even after a cumshow.. wanting me to pick what side to use for his pleasure. I often wondered why he did it like this. My imagination ran wild. Maybe he would do the old trick of sitting on the hand to get it numb and feel like someone else was touching him, maybe he used this hand for an extra toy, maybe it was the best way he found to feel I was part of his night.. But one thing I was sure. Mr. Ambidextrous didn't have his right arm stronger than the left. The years passed by and on a fateful summer night of 2019 Mr. Ambidextrous showed up in my room. The startling MFC bells went off and there was the request: ***"Hey gorgeous! Left or right? Can you watch my cam today?"*** My usual C2C tip (to have a pop up of the members webcam while I was in public chat) was 200 tokens and he always tipped that amount for his request, so to me it felt like it was over due. **"Of course... also, let's go with right side"** As the pop up loaded I felt very curious to finally see Mr. Ambidextrous' face. There he was. He looked like a fit, late 20's, brown haired handsome guy, and I was totally right about both of his arms being equally toned. He waved to the cam as I said out loud: **"There you are.. it's nice to finally mee.t y..."** Mr. Ambidextrous started wrapping a rubber tube around his right arm while holding one end of it with his teeth to tighten it up. **"Hm.. What are you doing?"** Mr. Ambidextrous started tapping his right arm vein and showing a syringe while smiling very wide. **"Oh... no! NO DON'T DO THAT!!"** Mr. Ambidextrous ignores my pleads and proceeds to shoot up heroin. His eyes immediately rolling back and turning all white and his face distorting into a delirious pleasure expression that I am not willing to find out. He moves and distorts a bit and lays there without moving, enjoying his high. I close his webcam and am unable to hide from public chat my shock to realize what the left and right was for... for all these years. Everything clicked and made sense now. Not everything is what it seems. And this time the pervert mind was mine. Pfft masturbation... Also, he probably only uses his right hand anyways (unless he is left-handed). Unimpressive. *No good pic to illustrate this, so here is one of me getting my hair braided at the beach*

2022-03-16 05:30:48 +0000 UTC View Post

Hii!! Did you have a good Monday? Mine was so fast that I di..

Hii!! Did you have a good Monday? Mine was so fast that I didn't even see it pass by. I only know it happened because my tax documents are scattered over the table 😫 it wasnt a bad dream after all. I will be going live now on twitch for a bit ( twitch.tv/livelybella ).. stop by if you want some live asmr. Tomprrow is Camgirl Memoir day so stay tuned (:

2022-03-15 03:06:47 +0000 UTC View Post

MAKE A CHICKEN PIE WITH ME! This is a easy recipe that you c..

MAKE A CHICKEN PIE WITH ME! This is a easy recipe that you can make the dough using only the blender Preheat your over to 425 F Baking tray greased and floured You may adjust the ingredients to your taste. This pie is also great with tuna or ground beef Batter: *500 ml of milk or water (I always use the seasoned water from the chicken after its cooked) *250ml Olive oil *2 cups of Corn Starch (makes it lighter and more crunchy on top) *1 cup of flour *salt to taste (I use about 1 shallow spoon) *1 full spoon of oregano *4 eggs *1 tea spoon of baking powder ******** *600grams of chicken breast cut in cubes (I cut it with a kitchen scissor lol) *4 Whole palm hearts cut in thin slices or cubes *1 can of sweet peas *1 can of corn *1 onion in small cubes *2 tomatoes in cubes *4 garlic large cloves grinded *green onions to taste chopped *parsley to taste choppped *olives in small pieces (if you like them) *1 pepper (red, or orange, or yellow) in small pieces *chicken cubito flavor (you find it at international isle) Olive oil in pan, add the green onion whites (leave the leafy green for the end), the onion, the pepper until softened, then add the garlic. After everything is browned add the chicken, the tomatoes, 150 ml of water, the chicken seasoning and salt to taste, then cover the pot. (medium to high temperature.. depending on the strength of your stove) Cook for about 20 minutes making sure the water doesn't dry. Strain the water into a cup and then cook the chicken with the green onions and the parley for a minute. While chicken is still hot shake the pot for shredded chicken like I do in the video (or use a fork for a long time.. boring). Mix the corn, the sweet peas and the palm of hearts and keep it aside. *** In a blender add the eggs, the oil, the flour and corn starch, the salt the oregano, and the chicken water (fill up the cup with milk or water if its not enough water for the recipe). Blend it for a couple of minutes then add the baking powder to mix a bit more. add half of the batter onto the tray, layer it with the chicken then add the other half over the chicken. Bake for 20 - 25 min. keep an eye on it while you dance :)

2022-03-13 03:56:30 +0000 UTC View Post

Going live at 830pm 😚

2022-03-13 01:21:19 +0000 UTC View Post

Night night!! Just a head massage for people that enjoy ASMR..

Night night!! Just a head massage for people that enjoy ASMR. I will go live Saturday night (:

2022-03-12 06:35:15 +0000 UTC View Post

Hi guys I will be live this Saturday! What time is best to h..

Hi guys I will be live this Saturday! What time is best to hangout? I will be baking a pie 🥧

2022-03-11 06:47:35 +0000 UTC View Post

CAMGIRL MEMOIR 04 - The forbidden art of Giving Head *..

***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 04 - The forbidden art of Giving Head***
**January 2015**

I can safely say 2015 was the year of deep fetish discovery for me. Up to that point I was aware of quite a few fetishes such as balloon popping, humiliation, cigarrete smoking and others. But never like 2015 had I ever done so many unusual Skype Shows.

I had just returned to the camming scene after a long hiatus and within the first few months someone made a gif of me twerking in public chat and made it become an ad all over the porn sites (a mix of "single ladies in your area" or "take these pills to grow your dick" while I twerked using glasses and lifted my dark gray dress without using hands). It also got posted in a popular website that I honestly cannot remember the name right now.

Anyways, for the first time, I witnessed my chatroom easily going over the 300 viewer mark in a slow day and up to 600 on the regular. And with this wave of viewers the wild crowd came along.

Looking back now I believe it was a mix of factors.
1. Me not willing to do regular dildo shows and hardcore nudity, and 2. My popularity increased in fetish forums as I accepted to do them.

This peculiar day I was having a hard time reaching my Public Chat goal when a "new MFC Mail" popped up from this member I had never seen before.

***MrHead: You got a really good review on "etcetc" ! I would like to do a female power fantasy with you in private!!!"***

*BellaBrookz: Hey!! Really? I would love to read it!! Im so curious.. can you please send the link? > Also, Im open to do an Skype with you.. just let me know what you would like.*

***MrHead: It is on etcetcetc.org (fetish website). You will have to join and make 20 posts to gain access to the Review section. Basically, it said that you are: 1) Hot 2) muscular/ giant legs & ass 3) fetish friendly 4) You are comfortable fucking guys. I am not into girls fucking guys, but I like strong girls. Could you pretend to kick my ass or stomp on me in private? and then flex and pose and be mean afterward?***

I searched the website he sent and found a very in depth balloon fetish review (Hi Jeff! :p ). The review didn't say anything about me having sex and I've never had sex with any guy on cam so not sure why he said that, but I was glad it wasn't what he wanted.

*Bellabrookz: oh I see the balloon fetish review. i know who that guy is. Well.. Ive never done a private with those requests in specific, but id love to try.*

***MrHead: right now? if so i will send you the plot. wow. Your ass is EVEN BIGGER than I imagined. So i have a new idea (just for you. i have never done it before)....*** and he went on explaining in detail the entire plot for our "date".

Yes, I laughed... Yes, I was curious. He tipped for a very short skype (around 5 min or so).

I put on this tiny blue one piece that was like a tiny g-string in the back and an open front and oiled up my body as requested.

***SKYPE CALL - A new meaning to giving head***
I could not see him but he was very engaged typing throughout:

***MrHead: Oh wow I've never seen a woman so big like you.... I am without words. You are huge, exotic like a goddess...***

*Hi little man... you look so fragile and so... little. What do you want?* - I laugh as I look down. My butt looking bigger than the moon.

***I want to serve you, I could stay admiring you forever. How can you have such a perfect huge ass and legs?***

*Oh I have a special secret... do you want me to show you? It's big isn't it?*

***Yes... I can't even hug around it if I tried, mistress.. Whats your secret?***

*I know how you can serve me and be a little worthy...I need to steal a little of your energy to feed my big ass.* (I think he had a thing with the words "little" and "strong") *I just need you to stay still for me right there and admire the beauty of my huge ass... look how round it is* - I turn around and start flexing my muscles. And it looks so funny to me. Bonk bonk bonk.

***Yes mistress I will do anything to help you***

*Good boy.. stay still just look at how beautiful and strong I look! Im so much bigger than you.. you can't run even if you wanted*

***Yes you are right! Oh.. oh I feel something weird... my face is tingling.. my whole head feels weak***

*You will feel a little weak but I really need you to endure it. I need your energy to feed my ass*

***Mistress I can't stand it i really feel my head getting too weak, can i go?***

*No! I need you to stay still and hold on a little longer... do you see how much bigger my ass is becoming? I need just a little more energy*

***Mistress It's getting too weak I dont know how much longer I can do this, but I its worth it for your ass***

*Yes.. yes.. Just a little more.. you are doing a very important job.. give me all your energy. Stay strong*

***Oh mistress my head is too weak my head will explode.. please***

*Hold on I just need a little more!!!! Stay there*

***Mistress mistress! my head is too weak***

*You are feeding my ass.. I need more energy*

***My head.. it will explode I cant take it anymore.....***

*Calm down.. just relax my ass is very big and it needs a lot of energy*
Flex flex flex bonk bonk bonk

***Mistress aaaaaaaa BOOOOOOM my head exploded in tiny little pieces***

*Oops.. oh no. He really exploded - sad face- Well.. it was worth it though. You did a very good job little man* - as I look down and pet the camera. *My ass looks better than ever.* Then I turn around and blow a kiss to his... severed body (?)

***WOW! Thank you for the SKYPE this was amazing I never did this type before thank you!***
*chuckles*

You are welcome...
Now.. i'm not here to kink shame, and if it isn't harming anyone, do you. But if I'm being completely honest I did cringe a little while remembering my performance.
Nothing against the guy or his fetish but this certainly opened my views to human sexuality in directions I never knew was possible. I certainly feel inclined to study human psychology a bit closer these days...

The balloons started everything

2022-03-09 06:42:00 +0000 UTC View Post

Happy Monday ❤ I got a new laptop!

Happy Monday ❤ I got a new laptop!

2022-03-07 22:16:28 +0000 UTC View Post

Not sure how long the video will take to process so I will j..

Not sure how long the video will take to process so I will just post it here and go to sleep (: Do you guys like short ASMR videos like this? Perhaps I can make a longer one every month and stick to shorter videos like these throughout the month.. just keeping it simple and nice. This one is specially for those that didn't have a great day, I do some words of affirmation, treat you with some love and in the end Minnie wanted to say some goodnight. I just have to figure out to make the camera not change focus so much. It has moments of great quality and a few moments out of focus recorded this on my cellphone as well!

2022-03-05 09:44:31 +0000 UTC View Post

Good night everyone! Is it me or time is going by ridiculous..

Good night everyone! Is it me or time is going by ridiculously fast? It's already Saturday again pretty much 😱 Did you have a good Friday? I visited this Jurassic Park restaurant and was captivated by the entrance with all the dinossaur fossils.. can anyone tell me what bone is that? 😅

2022-03-05 05:20:49 +0000 UTC View Post

Our 1st relaxing ASMR! Don't forget your headphones. I..

***Our 1st relaxing ASMR! Don't forget your headphones.*** I recorded this with my cellphone as my computer decided to die when I was almost done editing my AirBnb manager video. Yes, it was infuriating. But then I looked at my phone.. my phone looked back at me... And it saved the day! What do you think of the quality? I kind of like it more than with the webcam (: If I felt comfortable recording with the camera on the back it would turn out super HD I think. Also, better lighting.. But then again, I wonder if it's a nice sight counting someone's pores while trying to relax.. lol. I'm headed to BestBuy tomorrow hoping they will let me trade this laptop for a new one since I have the warranty. The only issue is that I don't want them accessing my old n00ds 😅🙄 The video quality should be HD, if not look for the drop down menu to change the selection (:

2022-03-03 07:00:15 +0000 UTC View Post

CAMGIRL MEMOIR 03 - THE DOPEST SKYPE EVER **Some mont..

***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 03 - THE DOPEST SKYPE EVER*** **Some month in 2011** Camming used to be an online underground activity back then. I remember in 2011 when most people thought the webcams popping up in adult sites were just ads or viruses and the most popular chatrooms would hold a few hundred people max. As for my own chatroom I had about 10 people visiting me on a good day and having leaked content wasn't an issue yet for me. I insisted on being "non nude" on cam and had just made the decision to go topless in Skype only. Most of my live streams consisted of chatting and dancing and I was finally starting to m.eet a few nice people after endless days getting 1 or 2 guests. I was a very youn.g and shy girl then, with a will to flee the situation I was in real life and a high dose of self esteem issues due to a failed toxic marriage (yes, I married so yo.ung). It was incredibly hard to start from 0, with very bad English, no make up skills, no clue about lighting, no money and not a lot of experience online or in real life for that matter. I can say a part of me was really curious about this world, excited even, and another part of me was just screaming in shock that I had just started showing my boobs (Which I was very self conscious about ) on the internet. Well, not quite on the internet, publicly, but Skyping was already an insane concept in my mind. Mr. Dude was my third ever 4 digit tipper and I call him that because he refused to call me Bella, instead he called me his "Dudette". lol. The first few times he showed up he didn't tip anything but I appreciated his talkative nature. Oh I must add here he was also my first ALL CAPS chatter (More on this later). My chatroom was often very quiet and having someone to talk to was more entertaining to watch in case any new bypassers decided to stop by. ***Mr. Dude: "HEY GIRLLLL I MISSED YOU WHASSUP TODAY I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU" Mr. Dude: "NO NO TODAY I REALLY WANT TO MAKE YOU SMILE VERY BIG. WHAT DO YOU THINK?" Mr.Dude: "ARE YOU READY? NO BUT I WANT TO SEE YOU SMILE YOU KNOW YOU ARE MY GIRL, MY FAVORITE DUDETTE" Mr. Dude: "MY ROOMATE FINALLY PAID ME SO NOW IM FLOOWIN ON CASH. YO IM SO RICH NOW IM HERE TO MAKE YOUR DAY"*** Hahaha yes please, make my day. ***Mr. Dude tipped 1000 tokens and left a message: LET'S SKYPE!!!*** At the time I was doing 900 tokens for a 30 min. Skype, topless flashing only. A true Private on MFC for that amount of time would be 2400 tokens, so I thought it was a good plan to get to know new patrons and also I felt I wasn't that good with being sexy. Baby steps... Even with this deal going for a month this was my second Skype request ever, and he even tipped extra. I was excited. **Yaayyy Thank you so much, Dude!!! We can go right now if you want.** ***"I WILL MEE.T YOU THERE! I CANT WAIT OMG YES! PLEASE GET THIS PLAYLIST READY! YOU ARE SO SEXY*** He sent me a list of R&B sounds in private chat but since I played those so often on my streams I just logged on my Youtube playlist. **In Skype** ***"READY? OK YOU CAN START WITH ALL CLOTHES, WEAR A SEXY BRA, I AM SO READY*** My heart was jumping in my chest. The side of me that was still shocked wanted me to turn it off and go hide under the blankets, while the other side was telling me this was an important step and in no time I could have as much fun and comfort as the top girls in the site, become financially independent in the US and also have so many nice friends online. They looked like they had so much fun... I felt that if I didn't take care of myself no one would. I saw how the other camgirls lived and they had everything I didn't. They looked happy, healthy, wealthy, popular and loved so what did I have to lose? I accepted the videocall request after a deep breath. Mr. Dude was waving on the other side and it was nice to give a face to the nickname. He looked exactly as I had imagined. He was restless, tall, very slim, white and with a huuuge smile, he wore a beanie and had a friendly face. I could see his kitchen in the background and his living room had no furniture besides a small black couch behind him. He was talking but his audio was off. I tried to warn him but he kept talking. I asked if he could hear me and he nodded with his head, kept chatting away and started sending kisses. I was puzzled on why he kept talking non stop while knowing I couldnt hear him at all, so I thought to myself he probably just wanted me to start getting sexy. I hit play on my youtube and went back on Skype. It was a slow beat so I got up and started teasing with my short dress. He was observing me and I still wasnt used to the experience of watching a guy watching me. I could feel my cheeks starting to burn and turn red so I strategically moved the camera off my face and focused on my body. He made a movement with his hands asking me to lift my dress but before I could start pulling it up he stood up very fast which got me startled for a second. I wondered if someone had arrived in his home. He was fully Donald Ducking. Wearing a t shirt and no pants or underwear. Partially erect, mostly soft. Oh and it was looong. I asked him if someone was there and got no reply. He just stood there. So I kept dancing and tried to not look at my screen too much. It was one thing to dance on MFC to nicknames and words on the screen, and another completely different to see the person watching me live. I lifted my dress and looked away for a few seconds until the curiosity got the best of me so I decided to look back to see his reaction, only to witness the most violent masturbation session I've ever seen to this day. Mr. Dude was violently jerking his soft dick in a way that the pixels were having a hard time keeping up. I gasped and stopped dancing and he did not care. He walked farther away from the camera and I can't express how bizarre this scene looked! The best way I can describe it would be an angry toddler chocking and shaking one of those funny chicken toys with long necks in all directions. The poor thing was like a whip being thrown around without a target to hit and his hands were so fast I was unable to see them on camera. I was actually concerned that he could rip it off somehow. I nervously laughed and asked him to take it easy and to my relief he left his dick alone and started head banging by himself around the small couch that was behind him. I sat down realizing I would be the one watching the show this time, so thats what I did. I tried to figure what kind of drugs he must have taken but that remains a mystery to this day. Mr Dude danced like there was no tomorrow, jumped on the couch and sat like a frog, violently jerked off his now completely soft very long penis, jumped on the kitchen counter, rolled out of it, jumped on the couch again, violently jerked off some more, twirled and head banged and danced on his personal dance floor completely out of beat to J Cole - Workout... He jumped on the couch again and rolled down falling on the floor and laying completely flat, his butt facing me and his face smashed on the floor. Kind of like Peter from family guy after falling down the stairs. I dared to ask if he was alright. No response. I left to get a glass of water and when I came back he was still laying down. Not moving. I started calling him, yelling.. I felt my stomach drop when I realized he could be needing medical attention and there wasn't anything I could do. I paced side to side and waited for long minutes. Not even the slightest movement. I hung up. I could barely sleep that night. I had laughed so much during the Skype date and now I just felt like a complete jerk. I prayed he was alright and someone found him and helped him. I logged on again on the next day and after a couple of hours I had about 15 people viewing me. To my relief Mr. Dude logs on and pops in my chatroom. Mr Dude tips 500 tokens and leaves a message: ***"DUUUUUUUUUUDE THIS GIRL IS AMAZING. HEY EVERYONE. FOR REAL. NO WE WENT SKYPE FOR THE FIRST TIME AND SHE NEARLY KILLED ME*** (no pun intended). ***SHE IS SO SEXY OMG SHE DANCED FOR ME SO SEXY AND HER BOOBS ARE THE BESTEST IT WAS THE BEST SKYPE OF MY LIFE SHE IS WORTH MUCH MORE THAN 900 TOKENS YOU WILL FOREVER BE MY DUDETTE I LOVE YOU"*** (Never saw my boobs) ***"NO SERIOUSLY IF YOU EVER GET THE CHANCE TAKE THIS GIRL ON SKYPE SHE IA AMAZING BEST SKYPE OF MY LIFE"*** I was glad whatever drugs he took made him have that impression of our Skype. But I am sure it was a much more memorable session to me than to him. He said he would be back later but he never logged on again on MFC or Skype. I still hope he is alive. Pic of your favorite dudette

2022-03-02 06:07:12 +0000 UTC View Post

I got it from my momma 😚 It's her last day here then I will ..

I got it from my momma 😚 It's her last day here then I will be all yours again. This past week I tried to give her the best I could since we only see each other a couple of times every year. The world has been getting scarier so we must take care of ours... I wasnt sure about this conceited shirt saying "angel" but she thought it looked cute 😂 👼 "you can't sit with us" I just started editing the ASMR video so I will be off for now 🙃

2022-02-28 01:30:11 +0000 UTC View Post

Today was much fun 🙃 When I got home I wanted to take my mot..

Today was much fun 🙃 When I got home I wanted to take my mother somewhere new so we went out to eat at the chocolate factory. After, we ended up in a karaoke by mistake. I hadn't been there yet but it was great. She almost went up to sing the "Tequila" song 😂 she says the English is easy enough for her, but unfortunately they didn't sort her name. Then we got lost and found this water fountain with fire up top that made a great background for pics. We asked the manager to take one of us then he kindly asked us to get the heck out 😅 which reminds me I gotta start working on the ASMR video so I can post it this weekend 💋 night night

2022-02-25 07:02:49 +0000 UTC View Post

**STORY TIME: Camgirl Memoir #02: The curious case of Benja..

**STORY TIME: Camgirl Memoir #02: The curious case of Benjamin Butt** ***February 2018*** February has always been a bittersweet month for me. It's my birthday month and even though I've never enjoyed blowing the candles out and feeling the clock ticking under my skin, the true reason I had been so averse to my birthday was that I had racked up a large series of bad events on this crucial date when growing up. However, the last few years things had been changing my perspective on this as I started making good friends on MFC and getting spoiled rotten more than any other day of the year. Usually, I would prepare a special show with balloons, prizes, cake, booze and my goals would be cleared back to back. But even before I went live I'd find my mail box with lovely messages from people I had come to admire and build a friendship with throughout the years <3 We were a couple of weeks away from my birthday and there's an unknown nickname in my mail box. It came attached to a $10 tip and read: "can you rate my panties?" ***"Good evening youn.g little Bella I know your birthday is near. I have always loved watching you. You have a warm personality and it makes me feel safe to share my secret fetish with you. I like to wear panties since a very youn.g age. Im not an homosexual but there's something sexy about watching my own butt in cute panties. My wife has no idea and I feel this could destroy our marriage but if you are willing to help me fulfill the fetish of being watched while wearing panties I'd be forever grateful. Love, Pops"*** "Pops"... I must admit the last bit creeped me out a little, but after many years in the industry I grew accustomed to seeing guys addressing themselves as Daddy or Papi.. Poppy was a first, but who can judge him at this point? I wasn't surprised when I logged on and he was already waiting in my chat. ***Grandpa tipped 200tokens and left a message: Hi Bella did you read my message? Add me to your friends list. Can you watch my cam tonight? I want you to see my new panties*** It is common for guys to pay a fee so you can watch a pop up of his webcam while you are live entertaining the chatroom. **Private Message Chat** ***Grandpa: Thank you for adding me. I will tip you to watch me everytime you log on if you watch me! Please, call me Grandpa or Pops*** Pops never showed his face but he had the most beautiful undergarments. Lace, leather, rhinestones covered, silk, covered in bows, with open butt, booty shorts, g-strings, thongs... you name it. Pops had a cute small butt that could compete with most Victoria's Secret model's, so it wasn't hard to compliment his lingerie shows. For each change he would tip for a through evaluation. He showed back, front and even spanked himself every now and then. Often he would get very turned on whenever I called him Sexy Poppy. Even though he didn't act on it, this was his trigger word. I usually didn't do inces.t play, but this case was a bit different. He didn't want to get sexual with me, he just wanted to feel pretty and validated. It did irk me out that he was always so insistent on being called grandpa(and variations), but that must be my boring Vanilla nature raising an eyebrow. After every show he would ask me to send a video on Snapchat to declare the winner, always reinforcing that he still looked good besides his age: *"Grandpa you looked very hot today. The hot pink pair was the one that made your butt look the best but the red with stockings were breathtaking. You still got it! I want you to wear it again next time and shake your little butt for me. *kisses* goodnight Sexy Poppy!"* *** The day of my birthday Grandpa gave me a sweet gift, a 5000tk tip: ***"Please, let's go Skype sometime this week"*** *"Yay! Thank you Poppy!! I'm looking forward to it"* A couple of minutes later Pops' webcam icon was turned on, so I clicked on it figuring he wanted me to watch him while I entertained the public as usual. He was afk and only a white wall could be seen so I kept my attention on live chat. He was probably changing. I always liked to imagine him as a retired 60+ year old, no kids, a pretty home and a conservative wife with whom he watched Fox news every night before she went to bed and he logged on MFC to display his secret panties collection (Or his wife's) and even though I'd never seen his face I knew he looked fit and healthy. His curious kink made me imagine many things about him. But what I never imagined was the face of a blonde 20 something year old that showed up on cam and looked deeply shocked when reading my private message saying: *Poppy!! You look way younger than I thought!* He said he was sorry and logged off, and to my disappointment never logged on again. * *sad trumpet sound* * I imagine he got very embarrassed, but to be honest I would have been understanding. If I knew the outcome I'd never have revealed I found out his real fetish.. He will be forever and dearly remembered as the curious case of Benjamin Butt. People never cease to amaze me. While I wanted to avoid my birthday at all costs, Mr Benjamin had given himself about 40 birthdays in a year. Pics I found illustrating a few of my happy birthdays on MFC. Yes the quality is atrocious 🥲 Yes I was dancing with a balloon clown... Yes I was very drun.k... Friends don't judge!

2022-02-23 05:52:08 +0000 UTC View Post