***Camgirl Memoir 07 - Mr. Never Enough*** *Posting a lil l..

***Camgirl Memoir 07 - Mr. Never Enough*** *Posting a lil later because I fell asleep upon getting home last night* **March 2016 to late 2016** I've always had a certain level of interest in psychology, and after a few years camming I can see now how both things can be seemingly connected. Camming dug me into a deeper view of peoples' minds. I guess "minds" wouldn't be the best word for it... it's more like "it has provided me rare experiences with people at very vulnerable moments of self expression". 🤔 There can be a lot of similarities between psychology and sex work, such as taking a sideline so that another person can process thoughts, worries, desires and, to a deeper level than therapists, act on fantasies. This was around the second time I took a break from camming. At the time I had already found "my people" and the requests for a Private Show had increased a lot. However, I wasn't naive enough to simply accept anyone's request, not anymore. Let's call him Mr. Never Enough. He was still in his late teens and it was his first time around a camsite. He was surprised I responded to his request to blow a kiss to prove I was live. We hit it off and he started visiting more often and one of these days was his birthday, so he decided to treat himself to his first Private show ever. I let him know clearly that I didn't do cumshows nor used toys. And his reply was: ***"All I want to see is you nude"*** (as I rarely did it in public chat at the time). He was mesmerized and even able to go for round 2. After the first private he came back for more. Always sneaking an extra request here and there. Throughout the months it went something like this: Slow strip > Do more poses > Twerk > Get Closer> Faster> Twerk faster > Clap booty > Change camera views several times during shows, etc... It was during the last private we had before my break from camming that he insisted for me to spread everything for the webcam as wide as I could - I drew my comfort zone there and said no. With each request I noticed he struggled to be satisfied. But to my surprise, when I returned months later, in August, there he was. It's always unnerving to go back on cam after a few months, so it was nice to have a familiar face around. He invited me to a Private and I accepted. The first show was fine. The second time around I was feeling so hot and sexy but he struggled to feel entertained. I had already stripped, danced, changed the camera placement, changed outfits, touched myself. The list of requests was endless and I was exhausted. He bought more time and confessed he loved to watch me, he loved my body and I was his first cangirl ever, but he thought he needed more. A sexy story as I touched my body would do it. I had never done that before. ***Mr Never Enough: Can you add anal to the story?*** *BellaBrookz: Of course* ***Mr Never Enough: I'd love to use a toy on you (in the story) so we could be doing double penetration.*** *BellaBrookz: Sure thing* I told the raunchiest story I could think of as I teased. He was happy. A few days later he was back: ***Mr Never Enough: Today I'd love to have you telling me a nice story while also dancing naked for me.*** *BellaBrookz: Yes we can do that ;)* ***Mr Never Enough: I really wish you were willing to show me everything wide... I'd pay you anything.*** My comfort zone wasn't there yet. ***Mr Never Enough: During sex I want to use a toy even bigger than my dick..*** Luckily I was feeling inspired that night and the story was coming easy for me. BellaBrookz: *"the toy feels so good like that, but when I look back at you I am begging for more with my eyes and you already know what I want. So you take the big toy from the nightstand and..."* ***Mr Never Enough: Can the toy be used on me?"*** *"... I take it from your hands with the other toy still inside of me and ask if you want to feel what I feel..."* The story goes on...I see it now. I decided to go up a notch to test the waters: *"...without asking anything I push my entire hand inside you along with the toy.."* The story gets to alarming levels of raunchiness. My point of personal preference to feel turned on had long been passed by then. But this is why it's known as work and not all fun and games... ***Mr Never Enough: Ohh yesss.. yesss*** He finished just like that. I got the drill. He is part of what we could categorize as: "the insatiables". When you are a camgirl you often have to participate in fantasies that aren't your own, but you get used to it quickly. It's even more important to find your comfort zone because things can escalate exponentially and if you aren't prepared to say no, your list of regrets will grow quickER. Mr Never Enough came back for a couple of other privates but there was a point that I couldn't fulfill his desires anymore as I wasn't willing to step further into demonstration to my stories. It was good while it lasted. *** Time went by and a few months later I met a camgirl friend from Canada. Our favorite pastime was to look for the craziest camshows going on in the internet at very late hours while using an undercover account. A bad habit I had acquired late 2011 with another camgirl friend (also from Canada, curiously). Eventually we found this room with a Colombian girl that was popping with hundreds of members. In one hour we witnessed her reaching her goals one after the other, a new boundary broken every time she reached it. It went kind of like this: "Red huge dildo" > "Black humongous dildo" > "entire hand in pussy" > "One apple in the pussy" > "2 oranges in pussy" > "2 oranges and a banana in pussy" > "2 oranges in pussy and red huge dildo in the ass" > "A bottle of wine in pussy" .. we watched in awe and shock until the gran finale "a keyboard in the pussy". Once the biggest goal was reached she was crying out of happiness. Removed a soft keyboard from a brand new package, rolled it and managed to get it all inside her. Impressive. What wasn't as shocking was realizing her biggest tipper was Mr Never Enough. A perfect match like Bonnie and Clyde, but the only thing they rob is your innocence. Ba dum tss. I think it's worrisome to be insatiable this way, since it decreases or even cancels your capacity of feeling satisfied in real life. If not yet, in time. In 9 years of camming I've had a few experiences with guys like this, that started early needing very little triggers to feel stimulated and later not being able to find anything good enough to please them. You could be hanging upside down from the ceiling fan while giving birth to a pinneaple with a Steve Harvey's moustache and it would still not be entertaining enough. A couple of these guys even gave up on visiting the site for sexy privates and shows and switching completely to conversation mode only. Better than a therapy session, they said. If you feel affected like this by porn and would like help fixing it send me a message on private chat here on Onlyfans. 💋 *I won't hang upside down from the ceiling fan but here is a pic of me pretending to play golf in what looks like pajamas.*💅🏻