**Diary Entry 1: WIP Character Teaser + My Actual Thoughts**
Disclaimer: This contains personal details and opinions, if you would like to seperate the artist from the art please do not read.
*Sunday 8th January 2023*
*Dear Diary,
I have decided that I want to start using my ‘blog’ tag more actively and consequently divulge my intentions and thoughts when going forward with this account. Therefore, without interuption may the first entry be recorded.*
*One week from now, my onlyfans account will be one year old. For lack of a less cliché phrase, time has went so fast and I am massively grateful for the support both financially and emotionally that this endeavour has provided. Additionally, I am eager to share the future of this account with you all as I begin to embark on a new angle to take to this account.*
*As of recent I feel my creativity and ideas flooding back that I haven’t felt in months. Therefore, I wish to channel this energy into my work. I have high hopes for my career in both SFW and NSFW modelling yet due to some physical and mental health barriers I have been somewhat lackluster with my posts on this account over the past month or two.*
*I understand that I will lose followers and hence income when I reveal more of myself as a person, after all, not many people enjoy viewing me as an artist, but rather a sex toy of sorts. However, I am very passionate about what I put out in the world and I hope that my artistry through outfit construction, photography and expression of my body will be recognised.*
*First and foremost, I am an artist. If you followed me because you enjoy the emotionally detached lust of a student, I apologise because you will only find passionate artistic lust. Except for a few posts where I’m a horny mess, but I digress.*
*I am not as popular as many of you seem to think, frankly what I make is way less than minimum wage for the hours I put it, excluding the thousands I have spent on accessories, clothing, toys etc. Therefore, I apologise but I will not be offering free custom content anymore. I realise that many have been upset with my lack of meeting their free requests, and I will hence be amending the description of my onlyfans account.*
*In future endeavours I intend to start providing a more immersive and constructed storyline visible behind the outfits. One could say I am not merely constructing outfits, but also characters. I just wish to provide some sort of angle behind certain outfits based on how they make me feel, as they are essentially products of who I am as a person.*
*Going forwards, I will be moving into a house with several friends ideally this summer, and at latest, this september. I intend to turn my bedroom into an actual studio by all intents and purposes, to properly immerse myself into the outfits I am wearing. For example, with this new outfit I am currently working on, I imagine him to be an employee, almost a servant of sorts to an aristocratic teahouse and would only feel like I am doing the outfit justice if I am surrounded by
teapots, a table, placemats for food, etc.*
*Essentially, I want to up the production value of my content, I’m aware this may come across as ironic due to lack of professional lighting or camera positioning in recent posts. To repeat myself, my ringlight is broken and I am currently trying to financially justify buying a new one, I will probably buy one this week, it’s just an internal struggle as a student to justify buying it. I know I need it, it’s just hard.*
*I’m going to delve into the deeper parts of my aesthetic presentation now. I am now 3 months on roaccutane for acne. Since 3 months ago, I have been strongly recommended against excessive shaving as it has been severely irritating my skin and hair follicles. I understand people follow me because I’m a ‘smooth hairless flawless femboy’ or whatever they imagine me to be. However, prioritising my health and longevity of my skin, I am only shaving in moderation until I finish my course of treatment. After this is complete, perhaps 3-6 months, I will be undergoing laser hair removal for several months. I have finally saved up enough savings to financially support this and am so relieved after years that it’s only a matter of time until I am more confident in my body.*
*There is also some personal things I have longed to share with everybody on my social media platforms for a year now, however, I cannot see myself doing that until I finally feel the comfort in my own body I am seeking. Thank you for your patience, it will explain a lot.*
*In the future I do wish to collaborate with other content creators, incorporate a more direct focus on sexuality and fulfill the custom content requests of those who ask of such. I just need to find my footing, so for now I hope you enjoy me as your horny little artist boy who has big dreams.*
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**The golden tearoom’s rookie**
*He has only sucked one dick in his life but he is determined to practice in his spare time to get better so that he can please his future master.*
*Sorry my recent posts have been so eh! I’ve been so busy spending time with my friends that came home from uni for christmas so I didn’t allocate time to make content or even shave.*
*Now my friends are gone back so I have time to focus on all my social medias again, it was fun to take a break for the first time in a year.*
*Side note: These photos are blurry messes because my main ringlight broke and my phone didn’t know where to focus so it kept changing focus every 5 seconds, so theres lots of blurry blotches from me trying to alter the definition quality through editing. Getting this sorted out so thanks for bearing with me.*
**Paint me like one of your french boys**
*A christmas take on boudoir artwork where a (silk) scarf covers my erogenous areas. I’m imagining I am told to take off my clothing as the painting progresses, then when it is done I am wrapping up my modesty, as if it was a present for you*
**Merry Christmas to all those who celebrate! If you don’t celebrate it heres a very homemade bonus photoset**
*I like the warmth on my skin, what can I say?*
**Should I post some really low quality but like homemade vibey christmas photos**
*I was reading a book by the fireplace and realised I had the room to myself so I took some extremely genuine just a uni student back home for christmas photos with crazy LED lens flares and the remainder only lit up by the fire I lit in the fireplace*
**Catboy Throwback**
*I’ll have new stuff in the works after christmas. At the minute I’m still on antibiotics on bed rest, hence the blurry older photos but I still wanted to post something*
**Tattered & Lustful**
*Doing my best attempt to stare into ur soul* :)
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*Apologies for lighting on last two posts, I have officially finished all my exams and am off for christmas. Every exam went very well to anybody wondering. However, my health has kinda taken a harsh pivot so I’m kinda on bedrest. Don’t worry, I always will have content to upload so the only person this is impacting is me. Anyways, I will have to be putting aside new content for a week or two, maybe more, to prevent causing more permanent damage to my body. Winters are hard for me because of health complications, I just didn’t expect it to be to this magnitude. Thanks again to everybody supporting me, it’s a nice comfort knowing I can afford specialist emergency appointments if I need them*
**Unwinding after an exam**
*I still have one more exam to study for on Friday but I decided to put aside a few hours to take some photos and videos in this outfit because I love it so much.*
*Due to some requests for the full set after my twitter teaser heres the rest of the pictures!*
*I finish university on friday so expect lots of fresh cooler outfit content after then, at the minute I’m just so busy with exam prep I haven’t been able to use all the new amazing outfits I’ve constructed the past month or so. Its actually 3am and I have an exam in the morning so I’m going to sleep now. thanks so much to everybody for supporting me* <3
**Obligatory Feet Post**
*I never ever really post feet stuff so if you find this post not to your tastes, just skip it. I make 15 high effort posts a month, the feet fetishists deserve atleast one post for the past few months baha*
**”You’re no use to me if you can’t make me cum”**
*I wanted to try give a disgusted facial expression and narrative, fun variety.*
*Life updates: My course is basically one of the only courses at my uni that does christmas exams btw so I’m kinda gonna be intensively distant and stressed for the next few weeks if anybody is wondering*
**[After-School Book Club]**
*I think that today we should read Bram Stoker’s Dracula, it’s known widely for its impact on modern gothic horror and continues to be a source of historical insight in the fears commonly held by civilisation in its time period. However, today we are going to focus a bit more on the homoerotic undertones prevalent in vampirism. Let me just get a bit more comfortable first then we can start…*
**Nature Watching (Unfiltered)**
*As of request, here are the unfiltered variants of yesterday’s post. The filter is cool and I like the vibe it gave off, but filters have a tendency to give an airbrushed effect which I greatly dislike*.
*Albeit yes, some of my photos may be blurry with a lack of hyperdetailed rendering for skin texture (sometimes I botch them when trying to brighten up the photo and also you gotta remember I’m taking these photos handfree from across the room on a £300 phone, therefore, frequently the focus point is offset by fluctuating lighting/shadows when I move around) yet these photos are still notably more detailed in terms of blemishes and skin texture*.
**Is nobody looking? Good, quick, take your clothes off!**
*Hey sorry this post is a few hours late, I individually edited over 50 photos which took several hours.* **Please please please comment below if you wanna see the unfiltered versions of the photos (more natural lighting and vibes) and I’ll post them tomorrow**
*You guys are going to love the next posts in this set, it’s very beautiful, believe it or not these are actually the ‘worst’ of the photos I took*
*Playing around with depth perception and kitsune masks - It’s interesting how in some angles u can have no ass at all and in others, a big one*
*I was gonna have a video up but I slept from noon to 7PM and now I’m rushing to get my stuff done haha*
I will hopefully have a video up later this week, absolutely drowning in workload cus christmas exams are just a few weeks away and I also have a big programming project to do 🥲
I’m buying the fetish tape and a new fancy fleshlight for black friday sale tho hehe, hopefully.
**I got much more turned on than I expected taking these, what would you do to me if you saw me like this?**
*A trial run on the bondage idea, next time I’ll be using multiple cameras, a brick wall, fetish duct tape, and still brainstorming… got a lot of thinking to do for this. I might not be able to do this for a month or two because I need to get some stuff delivered to my house (I am NOT ordering fetish tape to my uni accomodation that is embarassing), and then I’m also not sure about the outfit. I do have a torn up clothes outfit from a cosplay I did a few years ago so might get that from my house when I’m next down which is usually once a few weeks*
Would you guys be interested in something a bit more extreme like duct tape, handcuffs, etc?
I understand if you say no as I’m not sure if I’m coming on too strong. DM me your thoughts if you wanna talk about it further x
**Showing off my virgin ass**
*(Yes I’ve only topped, never bottomed despite popular belief lol). Also a reminder to click on images to view full size because some people don’t seem to realise you need to press on the picture to see the full thing and not the preview*
**Catboy maid eating his own cum** :3
*Dumb airpods microphone broke and the audio didn’t record so I’m very sorry about it, I’m more upset about it than you guys probably are, god damn. I recorded this while having the flu, hence the lack of cum and me laying back after climax because I tired myself out lol*
**Some more marshall lee, it’s still so funny to me that I took these while tipsy at 5am after halloween like omg my priorities**
*Starting to get bored of photosets I wanna post more videos so will see to that when I can, atm studying a lot*
