**Diary Entry 1: WIP Character Teaser + My Actual Thoughts**..

**Diary Entry 1: WIP Character Teaser + My Actual Thoughts** Disclaimer: This contains personal details and opinions, if you would like to seperate the artist from the art please do not read. *Sunday 8th January 2023* *Dear Diary, I have decided that I want to start using my ‘blog’ tag more actively and consequently divulge my intentions and thoughts when going forward with this account. Therefore, without interuption may the first entry be recorded.* *One week from now, my onlyfans account will be one year old. For lack of a less cliché phrase, time has went so fast and I am massively grateful for the support both financially and emotionally that this endeavour has provided. Additionally, I am eager to share the future of this account with you all as I begin to embark on a new angle to take to this account.* *As of recent I feel my creativity and ideas flooding back that I haven’t felt in months. Therefore, I wish to channel this energy into my work. I have high hopes for my career in both SFW and NSFW modelling yet due to some physical and mental health barriers I have been somewhat lackluster with my posts on this account over the past month or two.* *I understand that I will lose followers and hence income when I reveal more of myself as a person, after all, not many people enjoy viewing me as an artist, but rather a sex toy of sorts. However, I am very passionate about what I put out in the world and I hope that my artistry through outfit construction, photography and expression of my body will be recognised.* *First and foremost, I am an artist. If you followed me because you enjoy the emotionally detached lust of a student, I apologise because you will only find passionate artistic lust. Except for a few posts where I’m a horny mess, but I digress.* *I am not as popular as many of you seem to think, frankly what I make is way less than minimum wage for the hours I put it, excluding the thousands I have spent on accessories, clothing, toys etc. Therefore, I apologise but I will not be offering free custom content anymore. I realise that many have been upset with my lack of meeting their free requests, and I will hence be amending the description of my onlyfans account.* *In future endeavours I intend to start providing a more immersive and constructed storyline visible behind the outfits. One could say I am not merely constructing outfits, but also characters. I just wish to provide some sort of angle behind certain outfits based on how they make me feel, as they are essentially products of who I am as a person.* *Going forwards, I will be moving into a house with several friends ideally this summer, and at latest, this september. I intend to turn my bedroom into an actual studio by all intents and purposes, to properly immerse myself into the outfits I am wearing. For example, with this new outfit I am currently working on, I imagine him to be an employee, almost a servant of sorts to an aristocratic teahouse and would only feel like I am doing the outfit justice if I am surrounded by teapots, a table, placemats for food, etc.* *Essentially, I want to up the production value of my content, I’m aware this may come across as ironic due to lack of professional lighting or camera positioning in recent posts. To repeat myself, my ringlight is broken and I am currently trying to financially justify buying a new one, I will probably buy one this week, it’s just an internal struggle as a student to justify buying it. I know I need it, it’s just hard.* *I’m going to delve into the deeper parts of my aesthetic presentation now. I am now 3 months on roaccutane for acne. Since 3 months ago, I have been strongly recommended against excessive shaving as it has been severely irritating my skin and hair follicles. I understand people follow me because I’m a ‘smooth hairless flawless femboy’ or whatever they imagine me to be. However, prioritising my health and longevity of my skin, I am only shaving in moderation until I finish my course of treatment. After this is complete, perhaps 3-6 months, I will be undergoing laser hair removal for several months. I have finally saved up enough savings to financially support this and am so relieved after years that it’s only a matter of time until I am more confident in my body.* *There is also some personal things I have longed to share with everybody on my social media platforms for a year now, however, I cannot see myself doing that until I finally feel the comfort in my own body I am seeking. Thank you for your patience, it will explain a lot.* *In the future I do wish to collaborate with other content creators, incorporate a more direct focus on sexuality and fulfill the custom content requests of those who ask of such. I just need to find my footing, so for now I hope you enjoy me as your horny little artist boy who has big dreams.* ¢αѕтιєℓ σиуχ