♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ I'm setting up the lighting until 0:35 ^^" but some people find it interesting to watch me think, so I left it in... Mood: playful, flirtatious! I'm feeling... quite proud of my progress as a dancer/mover through these recent cam shows! Feeling proud is new for me. When I'm dancing, I'm often worried it's quite boring to look at... like maybe it's a bit interesting because I'm undressing or nude but it isn't a Dance. I love to dance, but I would like to Dance, capital D, if that makes sense. After the show, I watch the videos and am often blown away by how musical and flowing it looks! I'm also surprised by how fast and sharp some of my movements can be - they look a lot faster than they feel. I'd never heard this song in full, but the beats are just like Two Feets' songs and I feel I improvised to this song so naturally! So, I suppose this song marks a transition to feeling more confident in my dances <3 To trust more in my body. To rely less on the visual feedback.
Going to bed now after a lot of clean up and (re)connecting with model friends! I'll have more to share with you tomorrow. Kaileeshy raided my room today... and HOLY MOTHER FORKING SHIRT BALLS. I don't know what to say. I'm so grateful for all the amazing & strange & hilarious experiences Kailee has created. The room raid was quite overwhelming, like a tidal wave of people to cheering me on! That was insane. & So Much Fun. Thank you for enjoying today with me, friends, old & new. I feel I'll look back on this day soon and see it as a turning point for how openly and fully I can share. And, I am so happy to be connecting with more broadcasters! More people who spark conversation, who are playful, laughter-filled, present, exploring/learning <3 So many amazing (personal favorite) broadcasters stopped by today and I felt super shy ^^" /alex_next_door who was like Kailee's sidekick, /artemisfit who did my 200 squats with me, /aster_alabaster, /catasstrophe3x, /dndgf Leti, /amelia_c_ross Meli as well as /phoenix_taylor, /audrey_sunshine, /cutenataly, /goddesselysia, /softrose, /annahaven, /drathers (for his handpan music) and many new potential friends as well! Ty to Wassione & /alex_next_door for the images.
[2 posts today!] ♥ Thank you for supporting me here, for appreciating. <3 It nudges me to continue exploring... And, AHHHH, thank you for all your tips here! ♥ I did not expect that! (And, I continue not to expect that!) I am just so happy that my efforts impact your day :D and to see which videos are your favorites.
[2 posts today!] ♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: passionate, tango. I am so happy to discover & rediscover things with you! Thank you for this song, for bringing many memories... I am particularly drawn in by the passionate movement starting around 1:57 ♥, and proud of the most dancing I've ever done on the barstool at 3:02 ♥. Thank you for recommending the live concert version of Tango by Lara Fabian - incredible.
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: flowing provocative, sensual. Another song I'd never danced to, but I certainly will be dancing to it more! I loved feeling the resonance in my body... like the sound waves travel under my skin, bouncing from internal space to internal space.
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: Happy, playful flirtation! I can't believe I never danced to Dance Monkey by TONES AND I, but I certainly will be doing it more. Lettie [/dndgf] and I bonded over our love for Liana Blackburn, who did a choreo to this song. A song for getting into a playful mood :)
Reflecting on death... and on life. (The video is mostly the life part.) Appreciating that moment we shared (and this right now, of you reading, of me typing, of this asynchronous connecting.)
These inexpensive, synthetic leggings have that "second skin" look. I love seeing detail through something else - to be fully obscured and revealed simultaneously.
[2 posts today] A probably-too-vulgar funny moment of imaginary tipsiness - also inspired by Aster [/aster_alabaster]! "A toast to niceness! oh... F*ck being nice... just be real! But I think when you are /real/... in the sense of not putting on masks and pretenses and expectations and assumptions... then you are also /nice/, yes? You just /are/."
[2 posts today] Mood: sultry. I love to start my mornings by rolling around in bed, just stretching slowly, becoming aware of all of the fibers of my body, feeling the contact and support of the mattress and the pull of the sheets, yawning and sighing and making all the sounds that feel good. I hope you'll try it too!
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: romantic, playful. This song reminds me of old lovers, like a romance or a infrequent meetings spanning a decade. I love the textures here, and the playing/touching of the pants strap. I think I need more straps to play with.
[2 of 2 for “Iman” by Niyaz”] My favorite moments are the lights and shadows traveling over my hips towards the beginning, the touch on the wrist, and seeing my breath through my entire body at the end. Thank you to Sofia [CB /erotional] for this magical song :)
[1 of 2 for “Iman” by Niyaz”] I ♥ this look of skin newly cleansed of paint - being able to see what is covering and what is being covered simultaneously. It reminds me of the idea that we cannot separate the crest and trough of a wave, we cannot have light without dark. Thank you to Sofia [CB /erotional] for this magical song :)
I ♥ the marks made by rough dragging fingers across skin - with a layer of paint, the "marks" are subtractive, a revealing of skin, rather than a covering/changing of it. I enjoyed playing with this idea several times on Sunday! ... P.S. I ♥ that lick at the end...
An unabashedly happy dance for you! ♥ Thank you for encouraging my weird fun & atypical outfits! ...it's not about what I'm doing/wearing - your positivity & curiosity have helped me become more bold, lively, playful, experimental over time~
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: playful, flirtatious! I got this skirt to show you and I feel like it brings out... well, more traditional nightclub provocations? I particularly notice the mood change at 0:47, the hips at 1:07, and the mood change again at 2:15.
I'll be online today! If I miss you, here's some cheeky smiles! I particularly like the hip hits at 1:00... when I say "hip hits" I mean that I am moving my hip suddenly and to the music, rather than impact play - try to hit fleshy places, not boney or organy places for that.
Let's do some laughter yoga! (Longer than the clip on Twitter, due to the accidental/casual flashing at the end.) Just start by intentionally saying "ha" "hee hee" "tee hee" and allow it to evolve into real laughter.
Mood: swinging, French cafe flirts. Vibrant gold and red to add some light to your day! I'm really appreciating how camming has allowed me to be "more of myselves" - to be all of the different parts/aspects/forms/potentials of me, and especially, to expand the possibility of who I think "I am." <3
I ♥ the first several beat drops (these brief 'stories' of tension and release), as well as that mark across my back at 0:40 (there's a rebellious riskiness to it, I think.) You'll probably like the end of this video in particular.
◆ First moments with lush in 18mo... very distracted ◆ I probably should have set up my music before putting the lush in, but I am very enthused by your excitement to test it and make things complicated for me. We quickly learned that talking while lushing is not my strong suit... I'd like to better verbalize what I'm experiencing... ◆
"What does 'intimacy' mean?" A little AMA contemplation of what the word means to different people, about comfortable silences and gut feelings of closeness and connecting over time. P.S. Thank you for your support during my first lush experiment in a while! I'm sure I'll have something to offer you if you've missed it as well. Upcoming schedule is TBD - I think I will schedule more time for focused, personal conversations for a while. Look out for that if you're interested!
[Check your messages for the full striptease!] Mood: playful, flowing. I feel like I'm really starting to get a feel for this hip-shaking thing! Rhythms haven't come as naturally to me, but little by little, I will tease out more rhythms from my body. I particularly ♥ the hip-shaking at the end and the isolations (and the next part, of course).
♥ I love this image! Here's the dance it's from! You probably want to know that this look I'm giving you is from the paint pouring section starting 2:22. I particularly enjoyed the barstool touching/painting starting 3:02... I am looking for more objects to dance with, to paint with my body!
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ Mood: alive. escalates in intensity. ♥ Is there a song you love to get lost in? I'm pretty sure you know, but Da Yu by Zhou Shen is one of mine. I'm sure you've seen me dance to it a hundred times, and you'll probably see a hundred more. Is it different in the nude?
[2 posts] I love the way the paint drips, how it feels. It was not my intention but this paint consistency is like cake/sugar drizzle - I just mixed washable crayola paint with X amount of water. I feel like a toaster pastry... specifically a Toaster Strudel, but maybe a Pop Tart if you've never had the former.
[2nd post today, make sure to scroll down!] Nostalgia is a sensation I really enjoy... it's hard to describe what characterizes it. A mix of star-crossed lovers, and a lazy late night / very early morning, summer rains, tiny new discoveries, inside jokes, a holding on and a letting go. I'm not sure this description adds any clarity, but I suppose an inherent part of the 'nostalgia' feeling is a blurriness, the world in peripheral vision, a lens flare.
♥ A Personal Favorite ♥ I particularly LOVE the "magic" dancing & intensity that starts around 2:40, and the slow, ritualistic removal of paint that comes before. This is towards the end of my 2nd paint pouring show (both shows in one day, so this is after 6 hours of streaming). The exhaustion and full aliveness that comes with movement and touch and time is there. More paint content to come!
