Welcome into a real life studio moment. I'm creating three n..
Added 2022-07-06 12:16:01 +0000 UTCWelcome into a real life studio moment. I'm creating three new paintings on a hot summer day. Sunshine coming through the window. I'm in a rainbow bikini and talking freely about my love life and random whatevers that flow through my head. Kiori is behind the camera -- this is raw footage form a DSLR Canon 5D Mark IV filmed by @kiorijpeg Whenever I'm with this foxy woman, I'm spewing stories about sexy love and relationships. I lose myself a little bit in the creation. I'm not teaching. I'm not trying to pass on wisdom or be the 'wise one'. In these moments, I feel very raw and it's actually kind of vulnerable for me to share this. I'm letting you watch me talk to a friend as I create freestyle during the conversation. I like to open up like this and be seen in new ways. Different people bring out different sides of our personalities. I have many sub-personalities. When I'm with Kiori I feel a little bit more sassy sharp energy come through my body. I'm a little bit more diva and opinionated. That's what I see when I watch this. I see parts of myself come out that I want to sooth and comfort. I see myself a little unsure of what I'm doing. This is the great gift of cameras and being able to watch ourselves from new perspectives. Videos like this inspire me to let go, relax more, soft my jaw and listen more. I see my insecurities simmering and bubbling up to the surface. I feel humbled. I remember to be kind to myself first so I can be kind to others. I am not perfect and I am still full of love to give. Love, Cha
