It's the middle of the night. (Well, not in this picture - h..
Added 2025-02-24 11:15:54 +0000 UTCIt's the middle of the night. (Well, not in this picture - here are some koi fish I met yesterday and legs that don't see the sun often). But it is the middle of the night... I went to bed early, slept, woke up in all the quietness. This happens often, an interlude in between all the dreams where I start to dream my everyday life. I have been joking these last couple years that I have been half-assing both my lives, dipping my toes in here and there, contemplating deeply and not diving in, afraid of possibilities in one life consuming the other. I have always been holding myself back a little. I guess I am starting to full ass one of them now. And it is really taking my full ass. I have been so absent as Aly. but that is how it is right now. I am sorry for it. I accept it. I see your support for human me, and I cherish that and I cherish you. I recognize my luck and my priviledges and I savor them, appreciate them, make use of them. I learn and teach and learn. I give everything. I want to be present to who is front of me, not holding anything back. I meet me, just sincerely.
This timing reminds me of a song I have been moving to lately. Maybe you want to join me in that? "we've been loving in silence" by MARO
Lyrics:Ten past three and I'm waking up in your arms
Skin on skin, nothing else mattersOh, we've been here for a while
Haven't seen the sun come out, oh
We've been loving in silence
Drawing with our bodiesEvery crooked line in your back feels like part of me
(Feels like part of me)
Your story's in my fingers, you'll never wash away
(You'll never wash away)
