Hey people, The Last few days I was offline for a sad reason..

Hey people,
The Last few days I was offline for a sad reason... I chose to stay in silent and take some time to rest my mind and my soul until I am ready to explain to you what happend to me...
As some of you know already I am a mommy... of 3 awesome Cane Corso brand doggies and a sphynx cat... On 12th in the morning the best dog I ever had, his name was Punky, he was feeling sick and showing me some symptoms that he had babesiosis – he got this from a tick bite (I knew right away that he could have that, because in the spring of 2020 he had it also.) After I saw how sick he was feeling I just drove him directly to the vet. I hospitalized him at least for a few days (as the vet told me that he needs to be healed.) I was calm and patient and didn’t think even for a second the next day would be the saddest day of my life...
On the 13th... as I will call it unlucky from now on for my “brother” as I love to call my most special puppy ever... I got a call from the vet and he told me my dog passed away. His heart coudn’t make it, and he had a heart attack because the antidote was too strong and his sickness was already to developed into his internal organs.
I got this call and I just have been under shock, also until now because my heart, my brain and my soul does not want to realize that he is not anymore with me, with his wife Tokyo and his baby Van Gogh.... (as I said I was a mom of 3 special dogs!)
I was so down and so shocked that I didn’t even know what I can do with my Punky dog... so I finally decided to cremate him. I can’t believe my boy... is now ashes.
Punky was only four years old, I chose him first puppy from 7 puppies that were born. We had an amazing journey and the best friendship ever... I adore and love him and I will always miss him...
I am very lucky he left me his baby... Van Gogh!!! Now I have left at least a small piece of him.
I am sorry for being silent and I hope you understand me... I really never tought of this moment that quickly, he was not to old and healthy and he always had a lot of energy! He was the best dog ever!
I will post some photos with him in his memory! I have him on a tattoo so he will always be with me! The best dog ever! I have to keep continuing my life with this pain but positive that I have to take care of the other souls that are around me.
Kisses and hugs! See you soon!
P.S. Do you think dogs don't go to heaven? I'm telling you, they'll be there long before us.