Canceled my plans today bc nothing but sweats fit... Even i..

Canceled my plans today bc nothing but sweats fit...

Even if I love the new curves some days it feels too heavy to be out in public in something that doesn’t feel like you.

After bursting into tears and realizing I couldn’t recover in time to leave the house I thought about why, STILL, on my third pregnancy, I can’t suck it up and put on a long billowy curtain dress and feel fine like it seems everyone else does. Maternity clothes exist of course and I’ve been in the dressing rooms fiddling with whatever pulley system they’ve designed to try and deflect from the fact that it’s a $300 potato sack (up-charging because they know you have no where else to go). I’ve even pulled the trigger once or twice to find myself in a meeting or out to dinner as the cliche frumpy grumpy pregnant buzzkill. Awful. I’d rather cry into my closet and stay home.

But do the clothes really make the woman? Admitting that confidence comes from feeling good in your skin which, for me, translates to what I put over it, is super embarrassing. I always wear outrageous stuff that makes no sense, but maybe that’s exactly what I miss. Options.

Thankfully some days it does feel easy to improvise. A form-fitting, above the belly stretchy skirt and crop top works well in the summer. Overalls and a bralet. Anything tight and soft and stretchy really...looking back at myself an hour ago why couldn’t I just roll w the punches?

But pregnancy is sneaky. One day you feel like a life-giving goddess, the next, a freaky science project at the reject fair. You have little control over which way the wind blows. Hopefully in either scenario you find the courage to get dressed.

People have applauded me in the past for showing so much skin when pregnant. Embracing the female form, empowering other pregnant women to do the same. I just wished more clothes were designed with that same ethos. As empowering as nudity is, dressing should be equally so.

I’ll make sure I post more clothes here because today made me realize how much we need to see pregnant women NOT in billowy florals this summer (unless they feel hot and confident in them in which case GO FOR IT). Meanwhile I’ll try to do it my way best I know how.

Love you all. ❤️