Hello everyone. :) First of all, apologies to anyone who h..

Hello everyone. :) First of all, apologies to anyone who has been subscribed in the (significant!) amount of time in which I've kept this profile available and haven't posted anything. The honest truth is that I had found myself getting pretty burnt out with producing paid content. I was finding it very difficult to actually enjoy what it was that I was doing (what I'm doing, precisely, being attempting to achieve morbid obesity, lol) whilst constantly seeing in through the lens of producing paid content. I was finding that, rather that simply enjoying the process and having fun with people, I was instead constantly seeing hook-ups, feeding sessions and personal pig outs less as just enjoyable periods of indulging in kink and sexuality, and more as monetisation opportunities and chances to create "engagement" and generate more revenue. Any of you that actually do know me, you'll know that that is something I was, and still am, loathe to do. I hate the idea that I was falling into the trap of becoming a social media brand manager rather than just a guy on the internet who enjoys being fat and wants to be made fatter. It was really starting to take away from the enjoyment I felt in actually exploring the "piggier" side of me and draining it of any of the joy that I was finding there. It is also a case that I find that my commitment to gaining goes through ebbs and flows-- like, I think, a lot of people. Anyone who is a gainer has the dream of being able to focus on gaining 24/7, and just zone in, with laser focus, on becoming increasingly fat. Unfortunately however, and again as a lot of us are aware, for many of us that's just not possible. Life gets in the way. Work becomes stressful. Family voice concerns. Health issues get in the way. For me, personally, it was-- and remains to be-- work that gets in the way. I've got a stressful, fast-paced job which not only hinders my ability to gain, but also just leaves me tired and wrung out by the time that I get home, often to the extent that the idea of taking out the camera and hitting record is just too much, let alone wrangling up an appetite for large meals. There's also the issue, in my mind at least, about the "quality" or precise nature of the content that I want to produce-- or perhaps more accurately, the quality and nature of content that I think a potential *audience* want to see. I often overthink (I often have, I am a *chronic* over-analyst) about whether or not the quality or even what I'm doing in the videos themselves is good enough, or whether I should be doing more to up the production value. Should I invest in some kind of lighting equipment? Should I be more concerned about angles or point of view? Should I be injecting some kind of pornographic narrative into my content to keep people entertained? I realize, by and large, that people simply want the same thing I want, which is just videos of guys on the internet eating and getting bigger, but I worry about whether or not the stuff I'm creating does actually warrant a price tag or whether I'm overcharging people for sub-par content. That anxiety, in itself, was enough for me to steer away from making paid content for quite some time, if only because it was a persistent, underlying anxiety that was eating away at me quite a bit. All of this is in service to say that I am beginning to think of rebooting my OnlyFans. Not so much as it was before-- which, in my mind, was purely as a place to upload my sexual content-- but rather as more of an exploratory, lifestyle documentation of what it's like as a gainer. The weigh ins, the calorie counting, progress pictures, comparison videos, etc. Don't get me wrong, there's definitely still going to be sexy fun times! I just think that partially where I went wrong last time was feeling as though I had to constantly produce high-octane, kink-fueled porn videos. I think if I reduce the pressure on myself to produce, and instead just create and present something more natural and a little bit more intimate than what I would present on Twitter, then I would be able to find a happy medium where I am able to make a little money on the side *without* putting so much pressure on myself to constantly put something out there. In light of that, I'm thinking about whacking a few new posts on here that explore the growth that I have achieved since I've posted consistently, and then making subscriptions free for a small period before reintroducing a smaller fee that what I used to for people who want to help support my gains and have a bit more of an insight into what I do day-to-day as a gainer. It feels almost pointless writing this all down because, while I definitely do have subscribers, I feel like because I've been so inactive for so long nobody is going to see this! Lol. Regardless, to anyone that does seem this, thank you for taking the time out to read it. Going forth I'm really hoping I can achieve that happy medium and find a nice middle ground where I'm able to produce content people are happy with whilst not pressuring myself to create more, more, more. Here's hoping that this is the start of something new, exciting, and fun! Belly rubs, Wallowhog