day 15 in Barcelona. Wow Cant believe its been 2 weeks alre..
Added 2021-10-26 03:44:47 +0000 UTCday 15 in Barcelona. Wow Cant believe its been 2 weeks already. Our Spanish professor changed today. She seems to be funnier but I can´t learn much from her. And we are all girls in this C1 Spanish class. 😅 I start to feel like maybe i should skip school more often and go practice instead. I can learn it on my own, which is more efficient anyways. Then it came to the first dance class I went to in Europe. I looked for a place where they teach Popping and Waacking for so long. Nervous, don´t know if Im doing the right thing to be honest because i used to love dancing. But my stupid college in shanghai made it hard for me - long story. I´m just afriad that this will take away my passion for dance again, i dont know. Cuz i used to be so good. But what happened in shanghai completely destroyed my dancing passion - arm fracture due to falling down from a dance pole which took me months to recover, critics and pressure from all over..... I stopped dancing for a long time. (Then started writing songs. Its how my songwriting career starts) ............... Now im back in the dance class again. Looking at myself in the mirror, I'm lost and kinda found myself again at the same time. I'm struggling - to enjoy dance again. I know I am a good dancer, just I don't want to feel like I was obligatory to me- then it lost all the fun in it. I wanna feel the passion again. And will Europe bring it back to me? I don't know. I'm struggling. I still have my champion's plate I won when i was in high school doing street dance battle. I thought I would make it, to be one of the best dancers in China. Jokes on me. Couldn't even handle these minor setbacks and critics. But I'm getting back up. I'm not taking no for an answer! omg its 5 in the morning idk what im writing. hope it makes sense to you guys. haha just wrote what it came to my mind... I wanna dance agian, can you see it through my eyes? ( or tits? lol)
