Day 19 in Barcelona. Had a super busy week. Skipped a lot of..

Day 19 in Barcelona. Had a super busy week. Skipped a lot of Spanish classes. But music and dance has been really productive. Had my first drum lesson, my first bass lesson. And learned some SUPER DIFFICULT guitar skills. BORING and DULL and HARD.. Ouch... nothing is easy....... One thing in Spain that really frustrates me is 1. they always have vacations and weekend and vacations nothing is open- meaning you can't practice drums and piano on weekends and vacations. 2. No matter what you practice you have to reserve a room a day beforehands - and you can only practice 2 hours per day.... this is so different from China and what my old lifestyle was.. because literally before i just needed to stay in the music studio ALL DAY LONG practicing WHATEVER I WANT HOWEVER I WANT AS LONG AS I WANT... but now everything is more difficult...ugh..... The bass teacher doesnt seem to like me that much. Or he is just a super serious guy... He didn't laugh at my cheesy jokes 😂... and he seems to be very ...just serious..... idk... I feel like my fear for dance is going away gradually, or idk... knock on the wood... Just im glad i can start enjoying dance again, not like when i was in china - where everything seemed to be a competition - it really stressed me out. Last night I attened waacking class. Surprisingly, the teacher was also in Shanghai teaching at the dance stuido i went to when i was there, in 2015. Waacking class, gosh. Its been a long time since i took this class last time. I remember when i was 17 id go to this local dance studio EVERY NIGHT and take waacking lessons there. Helped me grow a lot. And last night all those memories flashed back again. I feel like i couldnt dance as well as before anymore - i stopped for a few years, had one year of mental breakdown about dance... now that im here again, looking at the mirror... idk, im just scared that id hate dance again cuz i used to be so happy with being able to dance. But one thing the teacher said to me, after class, " i saw your first move, and immediately i was like, this chick can dannnnnnnceee!" That cheered me up a lot. Yeah, its not about competiton, its about enjoying myself when i dance. I'm glad i kinda sorta found that enjoyment in dance again... It's raining here today. I hate rain. So, let me stay in bed and be with my guitar!