Day 32 in Barcelona. I haven't been posted for 2 days becaus..

Day 32 in Barcelona. I haven't been posted for 2 days because i have been super busy!! Im glad im busy just sometimes its too tiring...... Only if we had 30 hours a day!!! btw how do you guys do it when you are SUPER tired but you still gotta get up to work - cuz for me coffee doesnt work at all.... Anyways. This week both of my drum teacher and bass teacher both told me that I was a good student (altho my bass teacher did yell at me again saying i cant tell him im sexy anymore i need to be more serious😂😂😂 i mean.... theres nothing i can do..) BUT flamenco guitar is HARD AF.......... ITS SO HARD OMG IM GONNA CRY....i feel like im learning guitar from beginner level all over again. It requires a lot of fingers control 😭😭😭 PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE!!! My fans on Instagram is dropping - because i havent gone live lately. hence my followers on here are dropping too. Im a lil stressed. Like, i feel like i have so many things to do at a time - my priority is music i practice every day. But then I also need time, energy for social media cuz thats how i make money and once i give a little less attention on social media cuz much on music - im dropping follwers - making less money ( and im not making much money at all.. 🥲😂 and music is soooo money consuming....) AHHHH im stressed.. I need time for both but Im tired .. seriously why cant i have 30 hours a day😵😵😵 I have so many things to do a day!! Last night i watched some music videos of Doja cat - one of the bigshots nowdays in music industry, rising female singer/ rapper... I been thinking, what have i been doing? I'm not working hard enough cuz look at her - three years ago she was singing some stupid " bitch im a cow" song. Now hits after hits, awards after awards....And she is genuienly talented. Now look at me, i only have one single (actually 2) yet i have been focusing on technical stuff like how to play instruments better... i think its time for me to record more music and get it out to the world too. Just whenever i see better artists i feel like im not working hard enough... Cuz ive promised myself - i wanna hold the BEST concert in human history. Thats like my life goal. I wanna be the queen of pop music. I really want it. I wanna, in my concert, play ALL the instruments while singing my own songs, while dancing to my own songs. Yea a little ambitous I know. But yo thats just who i am. Ok been talking a lot i feel like OF is a place where im recording my daily life and thoughts, a place where i get to give vent to my feelings - cuz i know nobody's reading my texts anyways guys only care about my sexy photos- whether im naked or not or which body part am i showing today lol. Anyways, hope everybodys having a good weekend and enjoy my photos! love you!