day 60 in Barcelona Yea I just went live 30 mins ago. How d..
Added 2021-12-12 23:28:47 +0000 UTCday 60 in Barcelona Yea I just went live 30 mins ago. How do I feel? I really don't know. what I did was a whole notch up and I had never done this - show my body thatway on internet and in a way that I feel like I'm one of those girls who make a living by doing porn.Much respect for them to be honest.What I'm saying is just that...hey what am I doing with my Life ?I'm a musician.I practice 10 hours a day for this ? What am I doing showing my body for 30 bucks like is this the kind of life I want ? Is this who I want to end up being? I write songs.I dance. I work fucking hard,not so that I get paid by showing my body part. I know I make you guys happy.But I never want to make people happy in such a way.I want people to be happy listening to my music.......I don't know if I did the right thing.I'm super depressed and conflicted and panicked right now.On the other hand I do need the money.Life is not cheap and way more expensive a life of a musician's. And I'm also super happy that you guys, im making you guys happy even if it's in a way that I never expected... like I'm so glad I get to engage with you all!! you guys have been super nice and sweet and good to me I love you all🥺 I happy that ur happy And just when I was going live,the notifications popped up and my mon was texting me,sending me my cute videos of my little sister hurrying to school...she wants the best for her and for me. I want the best for my sister too. What my mom doesn't know is her baby daughter who she'd always taught to be a well-behaved educated person, to always respect her body was doing that while she was messaging me asking about my day. She d be disappointed. I still need sometime to think about whether I did it right or wrong.Also I really hope nobody was taking screenshots or recording the live.Please. Have a good day guys.I love you thank you for everybody who joined my live today. And ifyou wanna give me advice or anything comment below thank you❤
