He tied me up and grabbed my ass in Christmas colors~ Lewd a..

He tied me up and grabbed my ass in Christmas colors~ Lewd and nude versions of this photoset available! And please take a moment to read this if you want. I wrote an honest letter to my supporters: "I feel like a failure, but it's better to share these real emotions with you all because at the end of the day, you're real people subscribing to me. You've saved my life multiple times with your generosity and kindness this year. I feel like my silence makes it seem like I don't care and want to take advantage of you all, but that guilt has led to more silence, hiking up my anxiety, leading to more silence, then more anxiety. It's been a continuous loop and I'm writing this in an effort to break this wheel, because you guys really are sweet and understanding and you do appreciate and read these posts. My subscribers may be horny degenerates but you all also have a heart and are completely capable of understanding my feelings and you guys always do. You're not all a scary group of super horny m*n who only want to see me naked and then abandon me. You guys are my supporters! And you wanna see ME dressed up and sexy and having fun (and sometimes naked lol)! It doesn't matter what other creators do. It's not fair for me to compare my efforts to other creators who live a completely different life from mine. This "job" is a lot more stressful than it seems, and it truly is difficult for me to mentally handle the reality of what I upload to the internet. But this platform has totally changed the way people look at sex work in a positive way! I feel like someone who willingly crawled into the darkness that I called online sex work, but now there's this bright light at the end of the tunnel, called cultural acceptance of sex work, and I'm approaching it, but with with a seemingly unshakeable fear because it's honestly too fucking bright holy shit am I gonna be okay if I keep going? lol I'm looking around and noticing other creatives stepping out of the dark and into the light as well and they're living their dreams! It's like the light leads to an amusement park and everyone who does the same job as me are having so much fun while I'm hiding in the dark, occasionally peeking out and approaching the park, but always returning to my comfort zone in the darkness because the light is so bright it's hard to believe I'm going to be stepping into fun and not to my end. ....Okay, I'm not sure if that made ANY sense cuz I smoked some of the gewd stuff before writing this... but that was the best I could currently describe how my life feels and how it's going. The main point to get out of this is: I'm not leaving and I'm not quitting. Periodt. lol." REGARDING MY M/F video: I am re-shooting tonight!!! ^_^ I had to scrap the other one cuz I felt like it was too short and not a good angle.