📚 so this is a little bit more of a strange one and I hope t..

📚 so this is a little bit more of a strange one and I hope that this post doesn't offend anybody by being a little off topic ♥️

One of my dreams in this world has always been to write a novel - I know that sounds fantastical - like saying I want to see a real life dragon 🤭🐉 🐲 - but, hear me out.

The past year, I have started to realise that I could make something positive come out of the experiences I have had to survive. As a coping mechanism, I started writing again, trying to heal through the words on the page, processing more effectively.

I have been scribbling my thoughts, ideas and chapters into a notebook feverishly in the dark of night like a woman crazed 🤪🖋️ however, my hands are now too painful for me to write by hand and I think I am getting to the point where I need a place to invest more time into this. I am looking to invest in something similar to a Remarkable tablet. This would mean I would be able to type, late at night in the dark before I fall asleep. That is when I get the most creative ideas that all come to me in a flash - as the painful memories flood back.

I'm so chronically unwell along with just moving house (I still don't have half the furniture I need 🙊 oopsie me) so it would be irresponsible of me to invest any further money into writing right now. BUT I know that writing is giving me the tools to process the things that have happened to me. It gets so lonely being so sick, and this is fast becoming an outlet that is supporting my mental and physical health. I feel that, not only do I have the potential beginnings of a book - but also a new found ability to process everything in a healthy way.

I know this isn't particularly something that most of you will be interested in, so please feel free to ignore this post. But if anyone would like to help me during this period of time by offering a little towards this fundraiser to help me get the Remarkable tablet, I wouldn't even be able to put into words what that would do for me right now.

Thank you as always for allowing me to be able to speak freely on everything in my life - I love not only being able to share the creative crazy things that we get up to on here but also having your support as friends too. You give me a reason to wake up each morning and work my ass off in spite of everything and thank you for everything you do. Thank you for making me feel comfortable enough to talk about this stuff with you and ask you for a little bits of help towards these sorts of things because I know that you are good people and you won't judge me for the things that I've gone through and the ways that I want to deal with them. You are literal angels ♥️