Trigger Warning ⚠️ ?depression This is not a video of me ..
Added 2020-10-19 06:06:15 +0000 UTCTrigger Warning ⚠️
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This is not a video of me that I would normally share. However, you guys have been over the top wonderful people. I have really appreciate the messages and support. It has been well needed.
This video is of me becoming grounded. I’m not great with being touched but, I love sensory play. It’s one of the many contradictions about me.
So, I put on my favorite colored panties. (To help put me in “kitten/little mode”) Covered some of myself in rope (To put myself in a clear state of mind). Put on a blindfold to completely focus on the feel of things. I also, had a blanket laid down to have a self care item close by.
I enjoyed feeling the light feather. It was a tease not being able to feel it on my clit. When I would pass over the rope missing part of my skin to be touch caused a yearning for more. I needed the feel of almost nothing to get my mind to still. To find my breathing.
The pinwheel is always a fun toy for me. I like how I can feel the ticks of what makes my body move. To react into the light pain. It doesn’t push me over the edge with excitement but, it gives me a sense of adventure.
The rope. My favorite sensory toy. Even though I draped it over me lightly. It was heavy enough to be felt and know it covered me. I would move just slightly and get a tingle of scratchy material upon my skin. Each touch made my mind a little calmer like ripples in water. My body would know I’m safe. My mind knew I was okay in this moment.
This is where I like to be most. Right on the edge of it all. Getting my mind to calm. Getting my body to relax and embrace what is. The build up. The cum down. The beautiful edge that keeps me grounded to be more of a submissive.
